America’s most notorious serial killer — who bragged he was “the most cold-hearted son of a b—h you’ll ever meet” — was, in reality, a moaning, vain coward who cried for months when he was first jailed.
The pretty boy predator — electrocuted on Death Row 30 years ago after murdering up to 100 women in a hellish 1970s killing spree — also hated being called “crazy” and thought he was completely normal.
The National ENQUIRER can reveal the charming butcher’s whimperings after reviewing disturbing transcripts of more than 100 hours of never-before-heard tapes of his final confessions, made as he languished on Florida State Prison’s Death Row.
The tapes — which were recorded from his interviews with investigative reporters Stephen G. Michaud and Hugh Aynesworth — are featured in the new Netflix documentary, Conversations With A Killer: The Ted Bundy Tapes, which was released on Thursday, January 24, the 30th anniversary of his death.
Opening up about his belief that his mom’s emotional detachment, his family’s poverty and his unpopularity at school drove him to kill, maim and rape, Bundy bleated: “My mother and I didn’t talk a lot about real personal matters … certainly never about sex or anything like that … she doesn’t open up and explain.”
“I always felt I was too small. This feeling began to emerge in junior high school — that I didn’t have the weight or physique for sports. And it was very costly to buy the uniforms. My family didn’t always have the money,” he added. “So I was all on my own. It was a source of some agony.”
“I felt that I had developed intellectually but not socially. In high school, I would be characterized as introverted. My way to compensate for that was to say, ‘Well, I don’t go in for those things. I don’t like the drinking. I don’t care for this carrying on. I’m a serious student and I’m above all this,'” Bundy shared. “A lot of my pretensions about being a scholarly type was really a defense mechanism, because I couldn’t achieve those kinds of social goals I wanted.”
Alienated Bundy turned to porn and peeping through girl’s windows as a teen – before his hatred of rejection by society and women drove him to slaughter dozens of lookalike brunettes across at least seven states. Authorities believe he may have killed up to 100 women.
But Bundy hints in his final taped confessions his victims may have numbered in the THOUSANDS.
He boasts about his killings: “Who knows how many? For every one that’s publicized there could be one that’s not — thousands of people are reported missing and are never heard from again.”
But his hard man persona slips when he talks about his first months in jail.
Bundy — who sliced the heads off at least 12 of his victims, had sex with the corpses of others, ate his victims’ flesh and kept their body parts at home — moaned: “I thought I was going to die every night the first few days I was in jail back in October of 1975. I was scared to death, daily. I thought they were going to kill me. That first four or five months I cried at night. I was a wreck.”
“A couple of guys kept chanting, ‘We don’t like rape-os.’ Gave me the bad eye — called me a baby raper and all that s–t.”
It has been rumored for decades Bundy was gang-raped by four prisoners on Death Row in 1984 — with prosecution lawyer George R Dekle making the claim in his book about the killer’s case, The Last Murder.
For the first time, National ENQUIRER can reveal Bundy — who was terrified of being raped — hints that a Death Row guard allowed a mob of black inmates to sexually assault him.
Bundy said about the warden: “I’ve got this problem. I’ve got this red-headed bull back there who enjoys pushing me in sh–t. He agitates some of the blacks … tries to turn them against me.”
Revealing his terror of being put to death on the electric chair, Bundy said: “It’s an eye for an eye — it’s no deterrent. It does not and never will restore any measure of compensation to the victim’s family or the state.”
And talking of his hatred of being viewed as insane, Bundy added: “I know I’m not crazy, or insane, incompetent, anything else. I’m not an animal and I’m not crazy and I’m not a split personality. People refuse to believe that. That’s their problem. They’ll never truly understand what makes me tick.”
Bundy babbles one of the things that really turns him on is his foot and sock fetish.
He said: “I have always felt deprived of underwear. This is for real. I mean, I’ve got a sock fetish – I am really sick when it comes to socks. Those are some of the things for people who really want to know what makes Ted Bundy tick. I’m very close to my feet. They’re probably the most attractive feet you’ve ever seen. Socks are such a serious part of my life.”
Bundy was executed by electric chair on January 24, 1989, for the murder of 12-year-old Kimberly Leach, who he killed one month after his slayings of Lisa Levy and Margaret Bowman at Florida State University.
In our review of the entire Bundy transcripts used in the show, we found the killer also reveals he was hooked on valium, booze and weed and adored the kinky writings of the Marquis de Sade.
He also constantly refers to himself as “the entity” and “the organism” — despite insisting he did not suffer from schizophrenia and had “normal chromosomes.”