O.J. Simpson Murder Trial: Nicole’s Abuse Diaries — In Her Own Words!

O.J. Simpson’s  ex-wife suffered unspeakable physical, emotional and sexual abuse at his hands before her brutal murder, according to a hidden handwritten diary The National ENQUIRER has uncovered. These shocking pages reveal never-before-disclosed horrors that would lead to the bloody slayings of Nicole Brown Simpson, 35, and her friend, waiter Ronald Goldman, 25. O.J.'s beautiful wife (seen here in a police photo from a January 1989 incident where O.J. pleaded no contest to spousal battery) endured terrifying abuse during their 17-year relationship ― including her tragic realization that she believed O.J. would kill her one day!

Previously locked away in a vault, Nicole’s journal described her life before, during and after their marriage as a “living hell.” Chilling entries detailed how Simpson exploded at her during cocaine-fueled rages, beat her up in a Beverly Hills disco and even assaulted her on her birthday trip to Acapulco!

In disjointed sentences, Nicole scribbled about the first savage beating she suffered when O.J. physically and sexually attacked her on a Manhattan street late one night. “1978 ― first time he beat me up after Louis and Nunie Marx anniversary party ... street corner of New York City Fifth Avenue ... again Sherry Netherland Hotel,” she wrote. “Called mother a whore. Hit me while he f**ked me.”

She also recalled a vicious beating in a disco, writing: “Pips on Rodeo ... O.J. hit me off sofa at Pips ... wine closet ― beat me so bad.” Another 1978 entry told of the battered beauty’s trip to a doctor to check for broken bones following an attack. "Beat me up so bad at home. Ripped all clothes completely off me. Had X Rays,” she penned.

Even their vacation getaways offered no sanctuary from O.J.’s abuse! Nicole noted those times and places, writing: “Aspen 1986, Vail 1986, Hawaii, 1988, Acapulco for B-day 1989.” During a trip to Hawaii in 1988, when a man innocently kissed their then 4-month-old son, Justin, the 6-foot-3 running back flew into a rage. “Hawaii Xmas. Gay man kissed Justin. [O.J.] … threw me on floor. Bruises.”

Another disturbing diary entry described how “[O.J.] Threw fit ― chased me, grabbed me, threw me into walls ― threw all of my clothes out window, third floor, bruised.” She tragically wrote of trying to get him to quit his fury-fueling coke habit: “When you ask something of me, like, trying to stop you from doing too much cocaine ― and you get mad ― you’re wrong! … I’ve asked you to work on the coke ― you don’t!”

The beauty also revealed her torment over his constant cheating with other women ― and how he cruelly convinced her she was to blame! “I wanted to be a wonderful wife … but he made me feel so ugly,” Nicole wrote in one tortured entry.

The ENQUIRER previously revealed Nicole wrote that the heartless football “hero” once ordered her to abort their unborn son, Justin ― while threatening her with a gun. The brute also threw her and their 2-year-old daughter, Sydney, out of his house in the middle of the night. He shamefully abused her in front of Sydney and his best pal Al Cowlings ― calling Nicole a “disgusting … fat pig” ― because she was pregnant!

The ENQUIRER first published shocking excerpts from the diary in our Oct. 24, 1995, issue ― a year after the murders of Nicole and Ron. At the time, Nicole’s distraught father, Lou Brown, confirmed: “This is her personal diary that she kept at her condo. “This is definitely Nicole’s handwriting.”

The ENQUIRER then revealed a terrifying entry on June 3, 1994, nine days before Nicole was slaughtered, where O.J. furiously threatened her, saying, “You’re gonna pay for this, bitch. … You’ve got it coming.” Days later, on the night of June 12, 1994, her bloody corpse was found outside her home — with her throat slashed so savagely, her head was nearly severed from her body!