Transgendered hero CHAZ BONO remains haunted by the death of his first lesbian love and is living alone with a broken heart, sources told The National ENQUIRER.
“Chaz was still Chastity when he fell in love for the first time,” an insider revealed. “Chastity had a lesbian affair with someone who was much older – and never got over it.”
The woman in question was his child babysitter, Cher’s close friend Joan Stephens, who died at age 47 in 1994 of non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma.
“Joan had served as a babysitter for her two children, Chastity and Elijah Blue,” said the source. “Years later, a lesbian love affair between Chastity and Joan bloomed. When Joan got sick, Chastity be-came her caregiver till the end.”
But after Joan’s death, an anguished Chastity could barely function. Confided the pal: “It was a horribly bleak time.”
In 2002, Chastity – still female at the time – confessed to The ENQUIRER that Joan’s death directly contributed to a temporary addiction to Vicodin painkillers – and revealed how her death inspired her to become a gay advocate.
But, said an expert, that enduring grief may also prevent Chaz from forming a long-lasting relationship.
“It’s an extremely understandable supposition to make,” nationally known psychologist and relationship expert Dr. Judy Kuriansky told The ENQUIRER. “This woman babysat for Chaz – and with Cher frequently gone a lot of the time, this person could have become like a mother.
“Early childhood affections and attachments to the most critical person in the child’s life have a definitive impact on the later love relationships the child can – or cannot – form.”
Although the 46-year-old has been in three relationships since Joan’s death, they both ended short of the altar.
