Patrick Swayze widow Lisa Niemi is still grieving the loss of her husband on Sept. 14, but she's ready to talk about his passing.

In an interview with Oprah Winfrey airing Friday, Niemi explains that watching her husband's last moments was different than the experiences she's had with losing animals on their ranch.

"I felt them leave their bodies and it's always been a light and free feeling because they were out of pain," she said of the animals. "I was wondering if I would feel the same thing with Patrick. And I didn't. I didn't feel him leave when he actually stopped breathing."

Now, she says, "I feel him here. I feel like he hasn't left. I can feel every contour of his hand in mine."

Niemi says that when Swayze starred in Ghost, she thought she would never want to be contacted from beyond the grave like in the movie. But she's changed her mind. "Now I'm like, 'Please show yourself. I would love to see you.'"