Sex and the City‘s reigning cougar KIM CATTRALL hates herself after viewing her bloated appearance for new flick.

Kim plays a washed-up hooker in Meet Monica Velour and was told to pile on the tonnage because the director Kim Bearden seemed determined to view curvy Kim as something more – much more!

"He was very adamant about me gaining a lot of weight,’ Kim confided.

"He wanted me to gain like 35 pounds! Really, just for health reasons I couldn’t do that. I also didn’t have enough time to do it safely with a doctor’s care. But what I did was I put on fifteen pounds, and that was comfortable. I could do THAT. I just didn’t exercise at all."

The 53 year old sex kitten insists she’s pleased with the film, which preemed at the Tribeca Film Festival in New York, despite her horror.

"Terrifying,  really. It was really scary to look at."