KENDRA SUICIDE SHOCKER

Kendra Wilkinson's bombshell confession about her brave battle for sanity.

In new E! True Hollywood Story the blonde bunny and former Hef galpal admits her drug addled past and self mutilation with cutting during her short 24 years of life.

The new mommy said she was "about 13" when she had her first experience with cocaine after pals turned her on to "this white stuff."

"I started feeling pretty good," Kendra said. "That was the start of my drug days."

By age 15, Wilkinson was abusing drugs regularly but and was also "feeling suicidal" and "cutting myself."

"I had so much pain that I just wanted to die," Kendra divulged "It wasn't that I was trying to die, it was that the pain took away from my pain inside."

After admitted gulping down a "half-dozen or so medications", Kendra's mother, Patti, checked her into a locked psychiatric facility for two weeks.

"It was crazy in that place," the Girls Next Door star revealed.

 "We didn't see daylight. We weren't allowed outside. It was basically a jail, but it was a hospital."

Despite her family members being "scared to death," Wilkinson said the hospitalization "did not change me at all."

"I think it made me worse because in my heart I didn't want to change," she said. "People were forcing me, and that's something that does not work with me."

But finally when Kendra almost died from a cocaine overdose she suddenly realized she needed to get her life together.

"I was bleeding from every hole in my body and I really thought I was going to die that night," she said.

"But you know what, I survived, and I swear it was a couple of days after that that I had an epiphany. I just stopped drugs, stopped smoking cigarettes, stopped everything, and went home."